Feelings, emotions and all that mumbo-jumbo

What is wrong with me?!  No seriously what in the world is wrong with me.  For the past couple of years I have learned to control my emotions, especially when it comes to real issues.  Well not ALL my emotions, just my sadness emotion.

I’d cry over stupid stuff like movies or books, but when it comes down to the real deal, stuff that slap you in the face, its really hard for me to show any emotions, or show that I am hurt/sad/etc.  I turn stoic, my face will just be straight my eyes might become a little narrow and the only way you could tell that I am REALLY hurt or angry is by the way I am breathing.  I can’t really explain it, but you could tell.

Two or three days ago I was annoying Tooomz, telling her she has no feelings and she should start looking deep inside her to find what she has kept inside.  That she should learn to embrace all these feelings and be able to express them freely.  I was semi kidding.  I was kind of being sarcastic, trying to be one of those “hippie” ppl giving her advice.  She just laughed at what I was saying ;p

The same day, my friend called me, and i’ve been missing them a lot, and as soon as they said “Aloo” the waterworks started. I WAS CRYING! What the heck! I seriously couldn’t stop! In between all the sniffling, snorting and blowing my nose I told them I was fine, nothing was wrong, I just really missed them.

Whatever, it was a one time thing right?!

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Right after that phone call another friend called me and heard my voice and figured out I was crying, and he went and txted another friend and told her he was worried about me!! Whatever, anyways that other friend comes over and was asking me why I was crying ..

Me: “I was, I was crying ……” and i stared to cry again

Seriously! my friend was like Chiiirp!! Since when are you this emotional?! I never thought you were like this! Stop crying would yoU!

Anyways I stopped crying.  I have no idea why the HECK i was crying, I think the heat got to me.  Tharab fusat mokhyyyyy!

I have NOOOO problem showing my excited/lovey/happy emotion, bas crying, because I miss ppl! WAT THE HECK!

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Also I am sitting here at work, trying to actually do work, but its so early, my coffee got cold bas i’m still drinking it.

I am remembering Mirim this weekend, HAHAHA, when me and her sister were singing kareoke, I turn around to look at her and I see her hands over her ears, I can’t get that image out of my head.

Also NFL pre-season started…can’t wait til college football.  Need to find out where they will air the Minnesota games.  I hope our team is better this year than last.  Too bad theres a red mark on it from the recent scandal.

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54 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Purgatory72
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 05:09:43

    Tooomz express her feelings very well, I enjoy her calm and composed approach, follow her lead and you will be better.

    As for NFL, who is your team?

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  2. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 05:31:11

    Purg – Calm and composed, me? I will try to follow in Tooomz’s footsteps. Although I am ANYTHING but calm.

    NFL – I like the Patriots & Packers … But I’m more of a college football person

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  3. Tooomz
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 06:57:24

    *laughs* I still wish you started crying on the phone with me. I would’ve laughed at you so much 😉

    The Great Purgatory thinks I am calm and composed. Interesting. You have seen me angry, haven’t you? 😛

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  4. Purgatory72
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 07:02:15

    Not really, when I see fire flames from your eyes, then I know you are angry.

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  5. Purgatory72
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 07:02:50

    Oh and I go now by the name of The Purg, emphasis on the “The”

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  6. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 08:14:08

    At least you’re better than me. My emotions are completely innapropriate. I’ve laughed when people died (its how I cope). I don’t cry when I’m sad, but I can cry if other people are sad.
    And if you see me crying and its not that – its either something really bad or I’m really really angry. As in back away, and run fo your life.

    If I’m so angry that I’m crying and I don’t manage to walk away from the situation. Somebody is going to get hurt. Just ask my schoolmates: They say I stabbed somebody, I say I poked the bastard mo’fo’ with a sharp object.

    I’m a calm person in general, but I have no problem reacting harshly if people fu*k with me enough.

    I should wear a sign on my forehead that says “contents under pressure-DO NO IRRITATE”

    ___________________________________________

    As for you, Chirp, time for a pregnancy test maybe? Just kidding, just kidding, calm down now. It’s probably just a hormonal thing, or you ate too much chocolate and now you’re withdrawing (it could happen you know!).

    ___________________________________________

    Once, I started getting teary-eyed telling my friend I was going to miss the good times…etc. And she completely put me back in my place by saying: “Oh God, drama!” and she turned around and walked away…… LOOOOOOOOOOOL!

    Man, that soooo brought me back to my senses. I went “Damn! Bitch! *mumble**grumble*”
    Man, I love that girl!

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  7. Tooomz
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 08:55:36

    Chirp, no Facebook for me 😦 Talk to me heeeere.

    Purgatory, I will put the emphasis on the PURG. And I will pronounce it with a french accent with a J sound, like you’d say Purge.

    Prophet this applies for me:

    I’m a calm person in general, but I have no problem reacting harshly if people fu*k with me [and my friends] enough.

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  8. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:05:24

    Toooomz- BUT WHY 😥 I can’t write my thoughts here 😛
    I just had food from C&G, i dropped a whole chunk of my sandwich on my pants. Oops ;p
    Whats wrong with FB? why is it not working? Shigool? try again!!!!

    Prophet – I’ve heard the stories 😛 LOL Oh no he didn’t

    THE purg – wats ur team?

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  9. Tooomz
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:08:12

    But you can show your emotions 😉 Is 8PM fine or you want it to be earlier?

    Prophet are you in?

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  10. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:12:08

    8 is fine. I might go early to work on some stuff OR read harry potter with out being harrassed by my cat.

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  11. Purgatory72
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:15:19

    Cowboys.

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  12. Tooomz
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:15:25

    Why is Prophet not writing back? 😦

    Did you cry yet over Harry Potter? There is one part where I’m SURE you’ll be bawling your eyes out.

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  13. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:20:14

    I’m here now, do not despair. I haven’t read Harry potter yet, because I can’t remember the Half blood prince one. and I want to read it again and I can’t find it. 😦

    I’m hungry….

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  14. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:21:22

    THE purg – marion barber #24, the running back, was recruited from my uni, he was an amazing running back.

    Tooomz- i just told her to check … she might be working ;p
    is your fb working yet?
    No i didn’t cry, it pissed me off last night. 7ada qaharni harryo!

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  15. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:22:22

    I’m shopping on amazon, do you girls want anything? I’m getting “the hills” shirp. I’m sooooo going to have a girls night where we watch it and braid each others hair, do each each others hair and go “oh no, LC did not just dump jason. Oh no she di’int!”

    Whatcha think?

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  16. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:30:32

    OOOH OOH Laguna Beach Tooo! We could so tottally do each others nails and braid each others hair while wearing our pink sweat pants!
    Who are we kidding, we’re too cynical and sarcastic LOL
    but yeah i wanna watch the hills which season you getting???

    where did tooomz disappear toooo???

    Proph – whens ur appt 2day?

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  17. Tooomz
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:40:59

    Chirp madri. Will check now.

    Prophet, die! That said, I’m downloading the first couple of eps of S03 at home as I type this 😛 Never watched it before.

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  18. Tooomz
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:43:24

    Hey, your account is temporarily unavailable due to site maintenance. It should be available again within a few hours. We apologize for the inconvenience.

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  19. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:51:05

    My appt. is at 4 (its gonna take a while) and then I’m supposed to be having dinner with a friend that just came back from the US, but shes kinda jet lagged. So if she cancels, I’ll join y’all.

    Tooomz, the hills is one of those “I’m a california girl with drama in my life” reality shows. You are gonna slap me for watching it once you see it. I want those episodes though.

    Chirp: I’m getting the first 2 seasons. And you totally get what I mean about the “girls night” like oh my god like your like so in tune with my thoughts, like, like, yeah.
    (Seriously, I want to do it, from the rocky road ice cream to the pyjamas. You up for it? I’m gonna do it once the dvds get here – in approx. a week) Tooomz you should come and experience total ditziness- it’ll be fun like “In america…”

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  20. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:51:09

    DAMN IT! iffffffffffff….

    Where can I buy wooodboxes that I can paint? i need them to be kinda on the big side?

    tooomz – does fay have a nick name? like how u have tooomz and i’m the chirpster? ;p

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  21. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:53:27

    We should call fay something like “foofy-foofy”

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  22. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:54:13

    last chance- anything from amazon, anybody?

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  23. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:54:30

    The hills is a spin off from Laguna Beach. I used to like Lauren until the end of season 1, i wanted to slap her then.

    Prophet – like we are so totally in sync its awesome! except i dont really eat chocolate ice cream, i don’t wanna get fat LOOOOL (kidding i just don’t like chocolate that much), i am assuming rocky road has a lot of choco in it.

    omg i like totally can’t wait!!!!!!! ROCK ON girlfriends 😛

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  24. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:55:04

    Merci beaucoup frooooooooo!

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  25. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 09:56:45

    I don’t like sweet stuff either :)….. okay… lays and kitco it is then!

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  26. Tooomz
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:02:51

    No thanks to Amazon, Prophet 🙂

    I got into Laguna Beach Season 1 for 10 minutes until it annoyed me and I never watched it again.

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  27. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:03:12

    You know what song I’m listening to now Chirp? Do you remember “Mmmmbop” by Hanson?

    We so need to sing that song on girls night, mmmmmbop! Yeah!

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  28. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:06:25

    LOL I was listening 2 that on my way to work! GOD we are SO totally AWESOME .. YEAH plastics woohoo!

    Why didn’t u ask tooomz if she knew it, is she not teeeny bopper enough 😛

    I watched laguna beach regularly in the US, 1 of the girls, I think her name is Taylor, the one that went to ASU, joined the same sorority I was in, but shes in a different chapter. WOOHOO SISTER!

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  29. Tooomz
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:14:31

    I hated the Hansons.
    I hated MmmBop.
    I hate you now by proxy.

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  30. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:17:15

    God Chirp! Its one thing to watch the drama, but to actually know someone involved in the silliness, that’s just sad. Gosh *In a napoleon dynamite way*! J/k you KNOW you’re super-awesome, I’m just jealous: you know “people”

    and as for tooomz, she just puts up a front. I know how she really is. Imagine with me:

    Tooomz hair in pigtails, jumping on her bed, and dancing and singing to the backstreet boys. I can hear her now

    “I don’t care who you are, where you’re from
    I don’t care what you did, as long as you love me…..”

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  31. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:17:42

    I gtg for a while…. be back in like 30 mins

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  32. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:18:52

    You can’t hate me…u luff me!

    oh the heart break !

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  33. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:20:10

    LOL i don’t “KNOW” her, I could pretend though.

    LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL 3ala the image of TOOOMZ hahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahah
    that image will FOREVER be in my mind HAHAHAHA

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  34. Purgatory72
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:28:29

    I forgot to ask, are you talking about feelings or feeeeeeeeeelings?

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  35. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:35:46

    Purg – what’s the difference betweeen feeling and feeeeeeeeeeeeeelings?!

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  36. Tooomz
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:36:30

    Prophet & Chirp 😛

    Quit Playing Games with my Heart

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  37. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:37:10

    I’m back, sooner than expected

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  38. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:38:30

    Celeeeeebrate goood times come on.

    Tooooomzyyy – Oooops I did it again 😛

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  39. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:39:58

    Or toomz doing the bye,bye,bye move….. tooomz you really have to perform for us one day.

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  40. Tooomz
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:47:58

    Country rooooooads take me hooooooome

    Never, Prophet, NEVER!

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  41. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:51:07

    WE ALL LIVE IN A YELLOW SUBMARINE YELLOW SUBMARINE YELLOW SUBMARINE!!!!!!!!!!!

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  42. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 10:54:22

    It’s peanut butter jelly time
    It’s peanut butter jelly time!

    Go chirp, shake that thang!

    Okay, you can stop now. I said stop shaking!

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  43. Tooomz
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 11:01:45

    *laughs* I don’t think she can stop.

    The A/C is cold here.

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  44. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 11:07:27

    Don’t stop belieeeeeeeeeving

    i WANNA GO homeeeee je suis le tired!!!!!!

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  45. Tooomz
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 11:12:06

    Je suis LE tired? What kind of French are you speaking imbecile?

    #45 and I’m done for the day 😉

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  46. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 11:12:24

    I can stop if want to GOSH!!!!!!!!

    U-G-L-Y you ain’t got no alibi yo ugly! hey hey yo ugly!

    Hey Proph me and tooomz might take a language in september u in?

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  47. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 11:13:26

    LOL its from “End of the world” on ebaums world.

    YOUR DONE? your leaving work!?!?! VAT?! not fair!

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  48. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 11:26:02

    Language? Depends what. I suggest spanish.

    Oooooo oooo…. you guys….. go check my blog…. I put a picture in the new post for you guys

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  49. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 11:32:52

    I love thae end of the world video. WTF?!

    What do you think of the picture?

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  50. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 11:36:17

    I suggested spanish too, bas Tooomz already took a spanish class so she won’t be a beginner like us.

    LOL loved the picture….

    COME BACK TOOOOMZ COME BACK!

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  51. Prophet
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 11:45:45

    What language are u thinking to take then?

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  52. Chirp
    Aug 14, 2007 @ 11:54:35

    Tagalog 😛

    I dunno what language yet.

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  53. Dilly$
    Aug 17, 2007 @ 17:55:28

    Couldn’t read all the comments.. but you are a Packer fan???? Interesting 😛

    Secondly, I think you were emotional because it was just a few days before your birthday 😛

    Fourthly, did I call on a crying day?

    First off, you hide your emotions?? NO WAY!

    Dear Charpy,

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  54. Annoyed in Italy
    Aug 20, 2007 @ 19:54:24

    Why didnt u write an I miss Tooomz post

    I am Annoyed in Italy hehehehehehehe

    Reply

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